5am Epiphany

• Creative, Imaginative, Inspiring
• Generous, Giving
  
• Caring, Kind, Thoughtful, Supportive, Loving
  
• Organised, Reliable
  
• Adventurous, Playful
  
• Ambitious, Determined, Strong, Confident
  
• Individual, Original, Unique, Me
  
• Funny
• Blessed, Content, Happy
  
• Calm
• Capable, Intelligent, Gifted
  
• Dreamer
• Enthusiatic, Positive
  
• Honest, Trustworthy
  

When a brown velour headboard is starting to look good you know there's something wrong! Likewise if it's you and not the baby getting the big 'flat spot' on the back of your head that's a problem too! There should be some sort of thing that breastfeeding mothers can do... When I fed Will at 4am I tried to stay awake the 10 minutes that it takes to feed him and get him back into bed. But failed dismally. I awoke when he awoke in my arms at 5am- with a sore head and neck from having my head much like the flip-top guy leaning back over my pillows supported by solid wood headboard. I feed Will and got him back in bed in an effort to snatch another blissful 90 minutes or so sleep.... and that is when my brain kicked into gear full force.

I'm taking myself through the Next Life Coach Change Your Life Series. The first part is writing a list of who you are (as opposed to what you do). That's mine at the start of the post (the purple ones are the me that I am either not doing at all at the mo or doing a fairly crap job of) .

What I thought was interesting was that when I tried to think of who I am I thought of this girl...

The one who wore these...

It took 18 months to erode that girl into the girl that I have been for the last 10 or so years... all of those things in the purple up there she was all that. Every so often I see flashes of that brilliance now.
I have changed so much, all of the changes were subtle at first and eventually became all encompassing. The reasons for the changes were many but mostly boiled down to the same thing. I'm working on getting that girl back...

(If you know me I welcome your comments on that list- be aware it's not as straightforward as you may think)

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